you cannot learn before mistakes .. people and places ... why does one assume they are always better ? im attached to your memories and not you ... i could live with a void and still don't need you ... you'll always surface .. thank you for being so kind and unkind .. .. i could spend days in ur arms and thats why i had to leave you .. a thought comes to me ... i know how less i remember how sweet you can be ... i only hold on to very little ... and yet its overwhelmingly enough ...

funny is a world where u could have been anyone ... i could have been anyone and i was born to be me ... why do i meet the people i do ? who is a soul mate? who is a friend ? how long do u have to know a person to call them a friend ..how are the other ways to phrase it ? .. someone i know ?

expectations ... oh no here we go again ........... the need to be treated good ? .. by another person ... which means .. a person -- a human --- with faults ... own thinking .... own assumptions and reactions ... bottom line : expectations have to be very flexible ... maybe people sudnt be taken seriously? heh well that doesn't sound right eh ...

if you can move on from day to day ... if you can look at someone and wish them well when u really know what they have done to you .. .. if you can walk alone not in a group and yet feel its enough .. if you can spend days even months alone and not feel lonely , if you can look for something special in anyone , if you can not judge a person and accept them the way they are let them deal with it .. if you can not say anything back to people that doesn't mean anything to you, in spite of how much they bring you down only cause some people just wont get it , if you can genuinely help someone who dislikes you , if you can accept bad times cause some people out there have had worst ... if you can just let most things go cause it doesn't really matter in the end ... cause u're accountable to you ...

dear god .. you made everyone , so similiar and yet so different ... you must know us very well .. you are enough for me ....