from my soul

i think you would love him had you met him
i failed you
i dont think of you
i dont wanna think of you
i wish you didnt go
it was my fault
i sud have taken care of you more
maybe i sud have considered other options
i miss you
i wish you had a better child than me
someone who would not have disappointed you
i am sorry i cant think of you , i sudnt write about you
but i need you and i miss you
i wish u didnt die i wish u didnt die
i cant say goodbye

How do you forgive ? the question of forgiveness sud arise from being treated unfairly i suppose
Forgiveness means forgetting ? so u automatically forget stufff ? it will be there but u choose not to react to it and hope it wont happen again ? but it cant change the fact that it happened and after that point of time somethings change and no matter what it cannot go back to the same ..
maybe forgiveness means accepting , accepting that shit can happen and still for other numerous reasons you choose to carry the shit with you in a more nice way?
Blame is such a nasty word .. its like im not responsible for stuff thats gone bad and its much easier for me to think its ur fault .. that way i am more at peace ..
Fate is so hard to understand, things go terribly wrong and u say its fate , dont you just hate friking FATE